“May He open our hearts to the Torah and place in us His love and His fear so as to do His will and to serve Him with perfect hearts; that we might not labor for nothing and not bring forth confusion.”
Cor 14:33 For G-d is not the author of confusion, but of peace; as in all the temples of the saints.
I learned one of the most important lessons of Torah in Jacob’s/Israel’s struggle on the last night of Pesach this year.
I don’t think Jacob ever fully appreciated Esau’s pain and loss until his hip was torn out of place.
On my walk back from Synagogue that evening, such wrath came upon me, I was lost in deep thought, wrestling with many emotions and filled with this wrath and cursing inwardly that were consuming me, and as I approached a deep ditch, on sandy, rocky terrain, wearing terrible shoes for the journey, my cursing reached its zenith, and I was thrown down by some force unseen headlong into the ditch, landing painfully in a cold stream bed at the bottom of a gully…
Searing pain shot up and down my leg as I lay there helpless and wet, feeling not a little foolish, but did not think it broken, until I tried to get up and was unable to.
I was somehow able to pull myself out of the streambed and crawl a ways back up the embankment, the way I had come, toward some train tracks of an ancient train that still runs through the neighborhood.
The pain was too great too go much further without passing out and I thought it would probably do more damage than good to try. I shifted to a sitting position and proceeded to call out for help. Just as I did, the world mock me! a train came rumbling by, and were a few minutes in passing, so that my cries were more or less in vain until it passed! As much pain as I may have been in, I had to laugh!
After it had passed, I lay there shivering, trying not to move too much for a couple hours, crying out, fearing I was going to spend the night there when finally a lad who I had met many months before in town came walking by and heard my cries. G-d bless him both now and always. He called the police/ambulance and I was soon on my way to the hospital; at last a use for cell phones that I found acceptable.
All this helped me realize and feel my adversary’s plight, which through as much I have been through I really hadn’t felt/experienced until that moment.
Lying there, helpless, in extreme pain, frightened and cold, thinking no one may be able to hear me for some time, I stopped to pray and consider deeply those who a while before I were cursing for their iniquity and worldliness. My prayer was answered and G-d sent me help through this young man who took pity on me.
I felt what it must be like to be cut off from G-d in the world, without comfort or help, as I imagine my brother must feel or Esau must have felt – full of fear, indignation and wrath.
It must be because Jacob was never consumed with a worldly wrath nor given to change toward G-d that G-d loved him and hated Esau…
In all his sufferings, etc. he never became unfaithful or evil/wicked.
Even toward Esau he remained affectionate.
All the good, the bad and the ugly that has happened to me has been of the L-RD’s Will, I believe, both for me, and for His people, the Jews.
I assuredly would have brought forth a purer, more peaceful and flattering work had I been left unmolested at my home with my new family come to join me at that time.
The same people I state were as “violent terrorists” had to be so in order to protect our home and heritage from the worldly influence and violence of our neighborhood as well as the terrorist influences plaguing the world over.
Some of the men of my house are righteous or would like to be so, but not wise as to godliness. And being defiled as men of violence must become, indeed cannot be wise, but may be faithful to one who is if they direct their course and hone their base instincts and talents to profit and protect His Chosen unto their good and restoration.
Wisdom of Solomon 1:4 Wisdom will not enter a deceitful soul, or dwell in a body enslaved to sin.
And so it were where I have come to live or have been “incarcerated.”
At the beginning, it really were that terrible and hopeless. But by suffering and working faithfully, through it all, I, with the help of even mine enemies have transformed what were an unclean and inhospitable place into something of a home for otherwise exiled prisoners of what may have seemed to they and I as fate or “karma’s” boon, but which, at least I have come to see were the cunning of our adversary and the will of our G-d in us overcoming the same.
It is HaShem fulfilling His word, chastening those He loves and bringing us all at last into the Promised Land in this our New Izrael/Zion.
It has been a wonderful work and a marvel and to find that there remains very little evidence of this Truth is all the more inspiring and awesome for those who know and especially we who were and remain here to enjoy His miraculous work first hand, awaiting more fulfillment and miracle in His world, as vessels of His omnipotent Will and Gracious Spirit. It is humbling indeed and a true joy for those who otherwise have very little to be happy about. There is no substitute for righteousness.
It is the celebration of the soul of one pardoned, though dead in transgressions and sin; made new to whatever extent one may in He who makes all things new and erases past misdeeds wrought in error.
G-d justifies not as man may and it is the Spirit available to all He restores, whatever else we may groan for. He knows what sustains and satisfies the least as well as the greatest of those whom He created out of compassion.
So though what we have may seem disorderly and like discord and confusion, the overseeing theme shall never be so. He who knows the hearts and cares for the souls, sees and instills perfect order and peace in our midst, even we who at many times throughout the ages have been bloody enemies one toward another, and of G-d and all righteousness.
And now, even as in every age; He would to fulfill His promise reiterated by the apostle that “all men shall be saved," and thus it is and shall be.
2Peter 3:9 The L-RD is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness; but is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.
The women I refer to as “a gaggle of ancient witches,” are more to be praised than perhaps all of Israel’s fighting men.
They have, almost as it were by accident or confused intention coupled with their own weaknesses somehow brought the miraculous to pass in finding the real reason why there should exist a Sanhedrin. Through their disobedience and impudence, they create an atmosphere or forum in which those who are or would be obedient and righteous are truly tested and corrected without being judged. They themselves being tested, tried and benefited by the same circumstance; no one really knowing why or wherefore the spirits are stirred to do this or that, choosing one way or another.
Much like the void or chaos that existed at the beginning; only the L-RD could make sense and bring order and righteous lasting, effectual shalom to such an otherwise minded congregation of wayward souls as we may have gathered together here in this strange New Izrael; composed mostly of grossly erring Jews and loyal, if confused, goyim who know not why they are Jews and would never claim to be so.
Romans 2:28-29 For he is not a Jew, which is one outwardly…but inwardly, circumcision of the heart and spirit…whose praise is of G-d.
And those who may have “defiled” and “deluded” my children are only healing and learning from the same, because contrary to popular opinion, old dogs may learn new tricks, and must in order to be of any use to a new generation.
All any of us may be sure of is that we have all been afflicted and tried and often reacted in ignorance and now are afforded yet another undue opportunity to be corrected and become faithful in obedience to Torah, thereby birthing a new nation conceived in Liberty undue and dedicated to the salvation of all mankind.
G-d’s Way seems strange and is alien and uncomfortable to many but it is how He shapes us and respects us as He made us to be – His Children.
Goyim were created for a very important reason; they set the worst, most anti-christ example in all they do and say. By heeding the warning and choosing otherwise, following G-d, separating the clean from the unclean, distinguishing rightly between love and hate, Jews become holy even among the worst of the otherwise minded, without condemning nor judging those who have chosen of their own free will to be the enemy of G-d and themselves.
Nevertheless, even they G-d did create and are but the pride of misfortune and avarice of parents toward their own children.
Luke 11:13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit unto them that ask Him?
There is no reason to war against the unclean. Avoidance and adherence to G-d’s Way enables the Jew to live among them neither harming nor incurring harm.
Pro 16:7 When a man’s ways please the L-RD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.
Only do not be a fool and imitate nor take after the heathen whose idols abide in their hearts.
Even their charity pollutes and is given with wicked intention, grudgingly bestowed if at all.
I’d rather give nobody something than something to nobody.
Most Christianity is nothing more that the “charity” of witches made Queens of gods made beasts of burden.
The USA is more or less a madhouse run by the whims and aspirations of a handful or two of goyim shrine whores and the swine who enthrone and empower them.
Adultery is a joke and divorce is a business.
The fabric of our reality is corrupted to such an extent that the Holy Spirit has virtually no Way into the world. An world in which filthy pride has convinced itself that the Spirit is meaningless and that the world’s cunning may never be overthrown.
Wisdom of Solomon 14:25-26 All is a raging riot of blood and murder, theft and deceit; corruption, faithlessness, tumult, perjury, confusion over what is good; forgetfulness of favors; defiling of souls, sexual perversion, disorder in marriages, adultery, and debauchery.
It is so insidious and disheartening that no one may be righteous, even if G-d made them to be so and they feel themselves to be so.
The devil seems light years ahead of any and all good intention born into the world and works non-stop, round the clock to thwart and extinguish the same. And there is only one he hasn’t or may not overcome and beat.
3Nephi 21: 10 But behold, the life of my servant shall be in my hand; therefore they shall not hurt him, although he shall be marred because of them. Yet I will heal him, for I will show unto them that my wisdom is greater than the cunning of the devil.
Yet, G-d’s promise remains eternal and unchanging to those who will or may take hold of It.
Because Judaism is systematically outlawed from our way of living by an long suffering and all powerful Christian cult of demonic mayhem makers, there is no way to even address the problem seriously. Because the truly mad and mentally deranged are enthroned and lawfully employed at solving or to solve all the world’s problems according to man’s knowledge and know-how which are both damnable and faithless.
Yet Christianity, in its purest and rarest form is perfect Judaism, something even the most learned of rabbis doesn’t discover until he meet Messiah, who is and is not seated at the right hand of G-d in the heavenly realms, for as Judaism rightly asserts there could not be and is no reality or world in which Messiah is not and has always been from generation to generation, age to age, working the same fulfillment of Torah and redemption of believers in every and each come to pass.
Without a Temple, a Zoo ensues, and in a zoo it is more survivalist than an animal farm where politics may govern those affected by the Spirit and Faith.
Goyim/Heathen, ironically experience less frustration by and temptation to evil than do Jews, largely because of their disassociation with and non-commitment to Judaism and Torah, and the pride that may affect an adherent.
Thus they are easier to govern by worldly standard and expectation but all the more difficult to supply the demands and cravings of.
Animals are sensationalistic when unbridled and impossible to subdue in a jungle atmosphere.
Hence war and business, cunning indifference and ridicule flourish begetting the sufferings of innocents like the Messiah, the lamb-like savior, who is otherwise perfect and hated.
Not of this world…
But the real envy and upheaval in this world is caused by the adultery and hard-heartedness of all.
James 3:13-18 ; 4 :1-10
Who [is] a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom.
But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.
This wisdom descendeth not from above, but [is] earthly, sensual, devilish.
For where envying and strife [is], there [is] confusion and every evil work.
But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, [and] easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy.
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.
From whence [come] wars and fightings among you? [come they] not hence, [even] of your lusts that war in your members?
Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.
Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume [it] upon your lusts.
Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.
Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, The spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy?
But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.
Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse [your] hands, [ye] sinners; and purify [your] hearts, [ye] double minded.
Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and [your] joy to heaviness.
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.