Between The Heel And The Hand

2 Esdras 4:10-11

He said to me, ‘You cannot understand the things with which you have grown up; how then can your mind comprehend the way of the Most High? And how can one who is already worn out

by the corrupt world understand incorruption?’ When I heard this, I fell on my face.

Jer 8:3 And death shall be chosen rather than life by all the residue of them that remain of this evil family, which remain in all the places whither I have driven them, saith the LORD of hosts.


Your enemy fell in vanity and error, as those who choose abominations or ways abominable must, and then of course, had no choice but to join that which now owns those who do and work wickedness against the living sons of G-d, until they too are brought down to the same level, and any who wont join, or seek to do good and escape the folly are persecuted relentlessly but cunningly so as to make the righteous seem less than or otherwise…

It is horrifying to find men are the weaker sex when they fall, and prey more rabidly upon children and aged souls alike.

But that is the law of the jungle…

Heroes are those who fight these lowly creatures, and you may be surprised to find out who are the heroes and who the terrorists upon judgment day. And you’ll definitely be baffled as to who may be on the side of the righteous until then…

Mal 3:18 Then shall ye return, and discern between the righteous and the wicked, between him that serveth God and him that serveth him not.

I have made many an error in judgment myself, and it is hard when you find you have hurt or offended a brother or friend, but most know how insane fallen existence is, and so I find the stronger, easily forgive such and the wicked confound the wisest of sages and saints to no purpose other than wickedness most vile…

Whoever you may be, you are going to be wronged by someone close to you, and you’re going to find out who your friends are in a difficult manner most often…

It is hard to think rightly when reality throws you for a loop or worse.

But when you do discover what’s what, you’ll probably despise someone you thought you loved and love someone you thought you ought to despise…

If you look at the highest example of G-d’s love, a crucified saviour, you’ll feel why some people do the most hateful of things for what seem like the most pathetic and desperate of reasons…

Some of the most innocent seeming people may be your worst betrayers, and some of the worst seeming characters, your best friends…

He who would bow to you and fulfill all your wants and desires may be your worst enemy and he who grants you none praise and afflicts you, you’re best teacher and advisor…

This is how "America" was first born, frustration from its foundation, or rather, after the fall. And the game can be cruel to those unwilling to play. Players lose sensitivity to blessings and the gifts of the Spirit and learn to desire none but sensual fulfillment.

After the crucifixion, those in Christ became immediately easier to prey upon and underneath all mankind is an everlasting, ever-hungry grave, the only deliverance from which is the everlasting arm of the L-RD.

Hard to possess "bowels of compassion" when it is tooth and nail.

Forgive men and women for being boastful beasts..It’s just a reaction to an reality unkind.

It’s hard to find yourself, nevermind be yourself when you are "being there."

Thus the extreme importance of recovering oneself…and the not so obvious mark of the sellout.

Perhaps Christ becomes more important to many after the fall rather than before, but that much harder to appreciate and care about.

The thing that made the original trespass against me seven times worse than I may have deserved, is that because of it, each member of a body Legion sought to hurt me likewise, according to a personal vendetta against G-d, His Law and Word, because He may be hurt by hurting any who belong to Him. And the reason why is again envy and should not be.

When America was at her best, and I believe she may reclaim that in a new way, the fallen had a way of existing and enduring that made the experience for the whole quite pleasing. And again, no other nation upon earth has achieved this. It is worth fighting and warring over to protect and perpetuate… It is a shame, because of her citizens taking of that which is for entertainment too seriously on a personal level, greed and angst or paranoia has flourished rather than an adopted and fleshing out of that which we enjoyed solely through media and entertainment devices…If the things and stuff that dreams are made of were not fundamentally true about us, we never would have enjoyed the entertainment and delusion in the first place, and it really ought to be a matter of course to make it real, but when sin and evil and vulgarity become enthroned, it is hellfire to overcome and correct…

Charity and goodwill must become a real part of our lives, and not just something we enjoy vicariously through picture stories and films, books, and what have you…All our inspiring songs of optimism must be acted upon and our more somber melodies regarded in a right way and enjoyed for that which they are worth…

Luke 7:31-32 And the Lord said, Whereunto then shall I liken the men of this generation? and to what are they like?
They are like unto children sitting in the marketplace, and calling one to another, and saying, We have piped unto you, and ye have not danced; we have mourned to you, and ye have not wept

In two words: STOP PANICKING…It is like that time in the film It’s A Wonderful Life, when all the inhabitants in the town panicked because there was a "run on the bank." It’s senseless and faithless, but once it becomes mob mentality, it is almost impossible to stop from snowballing into something absurd and all too tragic.

Those who are counting upon our panic are long wicked, rotting snakes from beneath and there is reason to be afraid of that which empowers them, but little reason to panic because of them. They are of cruel intentions and desire that all become like them, and any who may escape, they endeavor to capture, one way or another, so as to devour their flesh as men would eat bread, or the flesh of animals…

Anyone owned by the Evil One, may work mesmerizing deception, through cunning and sadism. But it does not necessarily have to be so, and even that which is wicked is but seeking to relieve its own suffering, and as I’ve revealed in past entries, because of national disobedience, and people serving men’s tables rather than the L-RD, the wicked have no other way to endure. They are no more to blame than the ignorant…

But those in control, really powerless creatures, love control and reap much power thereby. You must be willing to give up all to gain anything, as I have been forced to do…You came into this world with nothing, and you may take nothing with you upon exit…

What matters are still the affectations and sentiments fleshed out mostly on screen for the purpose of entertainment, it is just impossible to bring them to life in our reality when the population must constantly be on guard against the preying minority, who through violence and terrorism are more powerful than the majority.

Again, it must start on an individual basis, you must desire charity and mercy flourish for one and all more than your own will be done. Remember Messiah is the stumbling block that causes to stumble those who are on a roll…it is for the sake of returning and preserving what worth is in you at whatever moment you are at in that personal free fall most likely, self aggrandized pie in the sky dream that should never have been born… It must be stopped, and of course, we would rather it not be, but it is the L-RD’s Will that matters and is best for us whether we wish to admit that or not.

Pro 19:21 [There are] many devices in a man’s heart; nevertheless the counsel of the LORD, that shall stand.


If you’ve made an idol out of a celebrity or person well known, imagine how difficult it may be for that idol or celebrity to be humbled as it is for any man. But therein do they and you recover what it is that made them star worthy or admirable in the first place, which were no more than an inspired spirit wearing itself thin…and I hate to be the best example of this that I may be able to find at the moment. But worn thin and out I find myself, and hopefully for all the right reasons, but the Word is my Judge, not mankind.

John 12:48 He that rejecteth me, and receiveth not my words, hath one that judgeth him: the word that I have spoken, the same shall judge him in the last day.

Change in thinking, and more so behaviour for those lost in time and delusion is certainly difficult, but not impossible as this current generation of suffering souls knows all to well.

Otherwise, things will grow worse and worse, and betrayal shall follow betrayal, and it stings to the soul every member of the Body.

You may feel as trapped as I do or have been for the past so many years, and it does drive to depression and exasperation, but I’ve seen souls recover from worse than you or I, and know that if we fall, G-d shall uphold all who held fast their integrity and empower and prosper the same in due time…

1Pe 5:5b-7 Yea, all [of you] be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble.
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

I am not a good man. I am as given to sin, codependency, and weakness as any man. And I forgive the same in one and all as a matter of course. It is those who use this truth to prey upon me and one another, those who shackle a brother in chains of "love," "family," and "heartache," and what have you, who I see as really weak and despicable…Wicked women being particularly cruel in this craft, because they must and are the weaker vessel, and I find most often, do so for more honourable reasons than men. Excusing neither, but that’s life, or at least has been for as long as I may remember…

You may often find yourself convinced that you are surrounded by witches and evil schmucks, who enjoy the evil they do more than they ever may have the life authentic which they lost. But it is not necessarily so, and you must always strive to forgive and excuse even that which seems unholy trespass. Not that it will be, but that you mustn’t tempt G-d nor the devil.

Rom 12:19 Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but [rather] give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance [is] mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

When you fall, management of that which you may have taken for granted, seemeth to become more important than life ever may have, and madness more essential than common sense, and in truth, under the current, unmerciful G-dless regime, is. But it needn’t be so, and will not be so in a Torah based society.

Sad, when you find people you consider strong and wise and loving to be cunning, hateful and weak, but it is often the case and when you discover it, you must react appropriately or fall to worse conclusions than they who you may now find you despise…In fact, you must overcome and love them despite these truths, and more so because of them.

For that which is hate personified "loves" nothing more than their own ability to charm and deceive and make others believe they "love one another."

It’s garbage upon it! And if not marked and rooted out may become unmanageable.

Hbr 12:15-16 Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble [you], and thereby many be defiled;
Lest there [be] any fornicator, or profane person, as Esau, who for one morsel of meat sold his birthright.

Jam 3:14-18 But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.
This wisdom descendeth not from above, but [is] earthly, sensual, devilish.
For where envying and strife [is], there [is] confusion and every evil work.
But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, [and] easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy.
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

One way or another, the world will crucify you. Evil enslaves weakness, and calls it consequential. But the L-RD will not suffer it.

D&C 29: 21 And the great and abominable church, which is the whore of all the earth, shall be cast down by devouring fire, according as it is spoken by the mouth of Ezekiel the prophet, who spoke of these things, which have not come to pass but surely must, as I live, for abominations shall not reign.


2 Esdras 1:24-40

Israel’s Disobedience and Rejection

‘What shall I do to you, O Jacob? You, Judah, would not obey me. I will turn to other nations and will give them my name, so that they may keep my statutes. Because you have forsaken me, I also will forsake you. When you beg mercy of me, I will show you no mercy. When you call to me, I will not listen to you; for you have defiled your hands with blood, and your feet are swift to commit murder. It is not as though you had forsaken me; you have forsaken yourselves, says the Lord.

‘Thus says the Lord Almighty: Have I not entreated you as a father entreats his sons or a mother her daughters or a nurse her children, so that you should be my people and I should be your God, and that you should be my children and I should be your father? I gathered you as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings. But now, what shall I do to you? I will cast you out from my presence. When you offer oblations to me, I will turn my face from you; for I have rejected your festal days, and new moons, and circumcisions of the flesh. I sent you my servants the prophets, but you have taken and killed them and torn their bodies in pieces; I will require their blood of you, says the Lord. Thus says the Lord Almighty: Recently you also laid hands on me, crying out before the judge’s seat for him to deliver me to you. You took me as a sinner, not as a father who freed you from slavery, and you delivered me to death by hanging me on the tree; these are the things you have done. Therefore, says the Lord, let my Father and his angels return and judge between you and me; if I have not kept the commandment of the Father, if I have not nourished you, if I have not done the things my Father commanded, I will contend in judgement with you, says the Lord.

‘Thus says the Lord Almighty: Your house is desolate; I will drive you out as the wind drives straw; and your sons will have no children, because with you they have neglected my commandment and have done what is evil in my sight. I will give your houses to a people that will come, who without having heard me will believe. Those to whom I have shown no signs will do what I have commanded. They have seen no prophets, yet will recall their former state. I call to witness the gratitude of the people that is to come, whose children rejoice with gladness; The apostles bear witness to the coming people with joy; though they do not see me with bodily eyes, yet with the spirit they will believe the things I have said.

‘And now, father, look with pride and see the people coming from the east; to them I will give as leaders Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and Hosea and Amos and Micah and Joel and Obadiah and Jonah and Nahum and Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah, and Malachi, who is also called the messenger of the Lord.


2 Esdras 2:8-14, 32

‘Woe to you, Assyria, who conceal the unrighteous within you! O wicked nation, remember what I did to Sodom and Gomorrah, whose land lies in lumps of pitch and heaps of ashes. Gomorrah, whose land descends to hell; That is what I will do to those who have not listened to me, says the Lord Almighty.’

Thus says the Lord to Ezra: ‘Tell my people that I will give them the kingdom of Jerusalem, which I was going to give to Israel. Moreover, I will take back to myself their glory, and will give to these others the everlasting habitations, which I had prepared for Israel. The tree of life shall give them fragrant perfume, and they shall neither toil nor become weary. Go,Seek and you will receive; pray that your days may be few, that they may be shortened. The kingdom is already prepared for you; be on the watch! Call, O call heaven and earth to witness: I set aside evil and created good; for I am the Living One, says the Lord.

Embrace your children until I come, and proclaim mercy to them; because my springs run over, and my grace will not fail.’


2 Esdras 4:22-43

The New Age Will Make All Things Clear

Then I answered and said, ‘I implore you, my lord, why have I been endowed with the power of understanding? For I did not wish to inquire about the ways above, but about those things that we daily experience: why Israel has been given over to the Gentiles in disgrace; why the people whom you loved has been given over to godless tribes, and the law of our ancestors has been brought to destruction and the written covenants no longer exist. We pass from the world like locusts, and our life is like a mist, and we are not worthy to obtain mercy. But what will he do for his name that is invoked over us? It is about these things that I have asked.’

He answered me and said, ‘If you are alive, you will see, and if you live long, you will often marvel, because the age is hurrying swiftly to its end. It will not be able to bring the things that have been promised to the righteous in their appointed times, because this age is full of sadness and infirmities. For the evil about which you ask me has been sown, but the harvest of it has not yet come. If therefore that which has been sown is not reaped, and if the place where the evil has been sown does not pass away, the field where the good has been sown will not come. For a grain of evil seed was sown in Adam’s heart from the beginning, and how much ungodliness it has produced until now—and will produce until the time of threshing comes! Consider now for yourself how much fruit of ungodliness a grain of evil seed has produced. When heads of grain without number are sown, how great a threshing-floor they will fill!’

When Will the New Age Come?

Then I answered and said, ‘How long? When will these things be? Why are our years few and evil?’ He answered me and said, ‘Do not be in a greater hurry than the Most High. You, indeed, are in a hurry for yourself, but the Highest is in a hurry on behalf of many. Did not the souls of the righteous in their chambers ask about these matters, saying, "How long are we to remain here? And when will the harvest of our reward come?" And the archangel Jeremiel answered and said, "When the number of those like yourselves is completed; for he has weighed the age in the balance, and measured the times by measure, and numbered the times by number; and he will not move or arouse them until that measure is fulfilled." ’

Then I answered and said, ‘But, O sovereign Lord, all of us also are full of ungodliness. It is perhaps on account of us that the time of threshing is delayed for the righteous—on account of the sins of those who inhabit the earth.’

He answered me and said, ‘Go and ask a pregnant woman whether, when her nine months have been completed, her womb can keep the fetus within her any longer.’

And I said, ‘No, lord, it cannot.’

He said to me, ‘In Hades the chambers of the souls are like the womb. For just as a woman who is in labour makes haste to escape the pangs of birth, so also do these places hasten to give back those things that were committed to them from the beginning. Then the things that you desire to see will be disclosed to you.’


2 Esdras 5:6-13, 18, 23-30, 36, 37, 40, 42, 47, 57

And one shall reign whom those who inhabit the earth do not expect, and the birds shall fly away together; and the Dead Sea shall cast up fish; and one whom the many do not know shall make his voice heard by night, and all shall hear his voice. There shall be chaos also in many places, fire shall often break out, the wild animals shall roam beyond their haunts, and menstruous women shall bring forth monsters. Salt waters shall be found in the sweet, and all friends shall conquer one another; then shall reason hide itself, and wisdom shall withdraw into its chamber, and it shall be sought by many but shall not be found, and unrighteousness and unrestraint shall increase on earth. One country shall ask its neighbour, "Has righteousness, or anyone who does right, passed through you?" And it will answer, "No." At that time people shall hope but not obtain; they shall labour, but their ways shall not prosper. These are the signs that I am permitted to tell you, and if you pray again, and weep as you do now, and fast for seven days, you shall hear yet greater things than these.’

Rise therefore and eat some bread, and do not forsake us, like a shepherd who leaves the flock in the power of savage wolves.’

I said, ‘O sovereign Lord, from every forest of the earth and from all its trees you have chosen one vine, and from all the lands of the world you have chosen for yourself one and from all the flowers of the world you have chosen for yourself one lily, and from all the depths of the sea you have filled for yourself one river, and from all the cities that have been built you have consecrated Zion for yourself, and from all the birds that have been created you have named for yourself one dove, and from all the flocks that have been made you have provided for yourself one sheep, and from all the multitude of peoples you have taken for yourself one people; and to this people, whom you have loved, you have given the law that is approved by all. And now, O Lord, why have you handed the one over to the many, and dishonoured the one root beyond the others, and scattered your only one among the many? And those who opposed your promises have trampled on those who believed your covenants. If you really hate your people, they should be punished at your own hands.’

He said to me, ‘Count up for me those who have not yet come, and gather for me the scattered raindrops, and make the withered flowers bloom again for me;

open for me the closed chambers, and bring out for me the winds shut up in them, or show me the picture of a voice; and then I will explain to you the travail that you ask to understand.’

He said to me, ‘Just as you cannot do one of the things that were mentioned, so you cannot discover my judgement, or the goal of the love that I have promised to my people.’

He said to me, ‘I shall liken my judgement to a circle; just as for those who are last there is no slowness, so for those who are first there is no haste.’

I said, ‘Of course it cannot, but only each in its own time.’

And she herself will answer you, "Those born in the strength of youth are different from those born during the time of old age, when the womb is failing."

2 Esdras 6:1-6, 10, 18-28, 34

He said to me, ‘At the beginning of the circle of the earth, and before the portals of the world were in place, and before the assembled winds blew, and before the rumblings of thunder sounded, and before the flashes of lightning shone, and before the foundations of paradise were laid, and before the beautiful flowers were seen, and before the powers of movements were established, and before the innumerable hosts of angels were gathered together, and before the heights of the air were lifted up, and before the measures of the firmaments were named, and before the footstool of Zion was established, and before the present years were reckoned and before the imaginations of those who now sin were estranged, and before those who stored up treasures of faith were sealed— then I planned these things, and they were made through me alone and not through another; just as the end shall come through me alone and not through another.’

The beginning of a person is the hand, and the end of a person is the heel; seek for nothing else, Ezra, between the heel and the hand, Ezra!’

It said, ‘The days are coming when I draw near to visit the inhabitants of the earth, and when I require from the doers of iniquity the penalty of their iniquity, and when the humiliation of Zion is complete. When the seal is placed upon the age that is about to pass away, then I will show these signs: the books shall be opened before the face of the firmament, and all shall see my judgement together. Children a year old shall speak with their voices, and pregnant women shall give birth to premature children at three and four months, and these shall live and leap about. Sown places shall suddenly appear unsown, and full storehouses shall suddenly be found to be empty; the trumpet shall sound aloud, and when all hear it, they shall suddenly be terrified. At that time friends shall make war on friends like enemies, the earth and those who inhabit it shall be terrified, and the springs of the fountains shall stand still, so that for three hours they shall not flow.

‘It shall be that whoever remains after all that I have foretold to you shall be saved and shall see my salvation and the end of my world. And they shall see those who were taken up, who from their birth have not tasted death; and the heart of the earth’s inhabitants shall be changed and converted to a different spirit. For evil shall be blotted out, and deceit shall be quenched; faithfulness shall flourish, and corruption shall be overcome, and the truth, which has been so long without fruit, shall be revealed.’

Do not be quick to think vain thoughts concerning the former times; then you will not act hastily in the last times." ’


Yigdal Elokim chai v’yishtabach nimtza v’ein et el m’tziuto. Echad v’ein yachid k’yichudo ne’lam v’gam ein sof l’achduto. Ein lo d’mut haguf v’eino guf lo na’aroch elav k’dushato. Kadmon l’chal davar asher nivra rishon v’ein reishit l’reishito. Hino adon olam l’chal notzar yoreh g’dulato umalchuto. Shefa n’vuato n’tano el anshei s’gulato v’tifarto. Lo kam b’Yisrael k’Moshe od navi umabit et t’munato. Torat emet natan l’amo el al yad n’vio ne’eman beito. Lo yachalif haEl v’lo yamir dato l’olamim l’zulato. Tzofeh v’yode’a s’tareinu mabit l’sof davar b’kadmato. Gomeil l’ish chesed k’mifalo noten l’rasha ra k’rishato. Yishlach l’ketz hayamim m’shichenu lifdot m’chakei ketz y’shuato. Meytim y’chaiyeh el b’rov chasdo Baruch adei ad shem t’hilato.

Exalted be the Living G-d and praised, He exists – unbounded by time in His existence. He is One – and there is no unity like His Oneness. Inscrutable and infinite is His Oneness. He has no semblance of a body nor is He corporeal; nor has His holiness any comparison. He preceded every being that was created – the First, and nothing preceded His precedence. Behold! He is Master of the universe to every creature, He demonstrates His greatness and His sovereignty. He granted His flow of prophecy to His treasured splendrous people. In Yisrael none like Moshe arose again – a prophet who perceived His vision clearly. G-d gave His people a Torah of truth, by means of His prophet, the most trusted of His household. G-d will never amend nor exchange His law for any other one, for all eternity. He scrutinizes and knows our hidden most secrets; He perceives a matter’s outcome at its inception. He recompenses man with kindness according to his deed; He places evil on the wicked according to his wickedness. By the End of Days He will send our Mashiach, to redeem those longing for His final salvation. G-d will revive the dead in His abundant kindness – Blessed forever is His praised Name.

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