A woman I met online the other day said she found me intellectually astute. I knew it was a line of bull and that she was seeking to cause me to stumble in vanity, but I thanked her kindly and told her it wasn’t so, I do not have a very well-educated mind, just one very open to God and a gift from Him for using His Word and receiving His Spirit as a guide and helpmate. I’m very fortunate to fulfill the Scripture more often that not when the need arise:
Luke 12:12 For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say.
Ever since being baptized and confirmed, all my senses have been heightened and I’ve been made aware of things, I never would have been before…I read now with an astounding level of discrimination, for instance. Immediately deciphering the web of Satan’s lies in all of our works…
The LORD has gifted me in many marvelous ways, though I must admit, He does ask a lot of His servants sometimes! He wondrously delivers when and what He promises…which leaves me dumbfounded yet eternally grateful and satisfied no matter what my circumstance.
Before being born again, I was the quintessential "American Idiot," and very much the victim of the American melting pot. And I very much enjoyed every minute of it, to my shame. She is a remarkable Vessel. Magically wonderful and full of love and compassion for one and all at Her best, tragically wicked, at Her worst, yet because of Her many counselors who Trust in the LORD, She is an easy Ship to aright and make worthy after suffering the ravages of storms, attacks, battles and the passions and follies of Her own shipmates. She never shines so brightly as after being forced and dragged through the mire of dutiful humiliation in defense of Her Beloved and Her Citizens. When She must endure such, returning to Her LORD is made difficult by the Pride She must surely cling to and be strengthened by during the warfare and desert sojourn necessary to accomplish this task.
When She finds Her country is not what it was but is a New Creation in Him upon Her return Home, She indeed must needs feel as a foreigner in Her own Nation for a time and space. One in which She must get reacquainted with Her own and strangers within Her as well.
I have felt this of late, and it is a very hard circumstance to deal with. Often we are strangers to ourselves, being reformed and remade every instant in a marvelous and miraculous new territory. Being naked and vulnerable in ways that we are not used to and definitely not comfortable with, we often desire to return to wallowing in a mire, any mire, be that of sin, or that of work and distraction, anything but deal with this unwelcome transformation of our world in which we were comfortable and fought long and hard to secure and protect our claim and such comforts as are the spoils of the victors in war. Being Born Again is very hard work, that doesn’t seem so, and when we’re upset, we mess up and seek to cover our own asses and assets, retarding our ability to receive the Gift and be born again…God is working a Mighty Work with the Creation under His Sovereign Rule right now and a lot of people feel lost and afraid yet not scared, I should hope. The Devil wants you scared and scared you ought to be of him. But of God is required our Holy Fear and Awe that permits Him to Work His Work in Us and His Creation, at His Marvelous and Miraculous Pace and Will…
We are priviledged with the honour of being guests in the LORD’s Creation. When our works cancel out or encroach upon the Divine Liberty of this Creation and Created, we are guilty of the most henious of tresspasses against the Holy Spirit of Our LORD.
Rom 1:20 For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, [even] his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: Because that, when they knew God, they glorified [him] not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.
A social butterfly is what I would like to be, but I am forced by situation and circumstance to be less than I might…This is wisdom. It’s a must so other butterflies can spread their wings and show off. I’m not that type, if I’m in the company of like minds and personas, we can all flutter about together and our mutual understanding allows each to participate and shine, but when you’re made unsure of where you stand in a Relationship, or find yourself in dangerous circumstances, it’s best to acknowledge to yourself, whom you are and openly admit it to others but not always to be it, if you follow my course…something like when Jesus said…"Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves."
This is especially important given the current reality we live in. Everyone’s a sensualist and a phony, so to be on your guard is an unfortunate necessity, which does not allow for social butterflies to form, let alone, take flight; they are often "cocooned" for a time…waiting a better age and opportunity to arise…
I very much enjoy professional circumstances that force one to build social manners and "tendencies." I love the capacity of "servant." I love dealing with the public in a way that humbles me and makes others feel special or served accordingly. One of the happiest times of my life was working in a fish market among immigrants who could not even speak english! As long as I was doing for others and feeling their satisfaction with my work, I was blissful.
I was once all about trying to find some housing for myself, a job, career, school, the whole schpeil, to escape home and because it is what society expects and demands of us, but I’ve since decided home is where I belong, and society and culture need to be destroyed and rebirthed authentically both in me and in the world. People have been longing to enter an Age of Authenticity, and for as long a time, such has been hidden, forced into hiding by our mad-paced rat race. The keepers of which, patiently labouring and watching as the rats kill themselves and each other off, much to the delight of the Authentic Man. If a rat discover the value of patience and sobriety before it’s too late, hurrah and welcome aboard, if not, sink or swim and ’round about you go…
I take care of my family and oversee the affairs of our estate. Back in the day, that seemed sufficient work for any man to aspire to. Today, it is not so, and as a result, we have organizations like housing services, which at the very least employ people with a task to achieve everyday for their fellowmen and women, at the most, house the homeless. Yet most people end up homeless and alone despite our very best efforts…So I’ve done the math and figured a solution, we’ve got to return home to the Lord and avoid straying into the wilderness of "progressive living." Made strong in friendship, we might labour and love together, as each man and woman realizes the clean, simple virtues and devoted notions that America was founded upon.
The LORD has made me deaf. I don’t mind it at all and I believe it was in God’s Plan for me. I learned a lot about a community of people who were invisible to me ere I became deaf. Now I realize that hearing, which ought to be a blessing was always a handicap because of what the world of "humanity, society and culture," offered me to listen to, mostly caustic noise. So, it is not as if anyone is "better off dead" after all, we’re just better off deaf!
Most people love noise and music and all sorts of distractions, like art or what have you, but all these people have missed the point. They’ve all become deaf to the Music of Creation. Lost the Gift and Glory that is a Relationship with the Creator and the right to be gods as the Created. When art becomes work, it’s no longer art. Americans are proud of figuring out how to solve problems and what to do in a "state of emergency." But we’ve forsaken the wisdom that preempts them and the lessor wisdom of "preemptive strikes." The real Wisdom and Glory of America belongs to Her Past and a Bygone Age during which Americans were proud of knowing what not to do, and laid down their lives or sacrificed themselves to protect the Liberty of those willing to make righteous judgments and live righteous lives of self-sacifice and simple service for Godly Glory and Righteous Peace. These produce the fruits of the Spirit which are a Harvest unto God. These were rights and honours protected and encouraged in our Constitution and Compact or vice versa. When we became proud of a piece of paper on which our Constitution was written rather than those who heard the words and took them to heart and made them actions and decisions, we almost as immediately forsook the same in our vanity and forced upon the children of Zion the cruelties of pride and avarice that protects and ensures the right to the same, pride and avarice. We were well on our way to inhabiting the jungles and desserts created by our enemies whom we thought ourselves better than. But in Truth, our unwillingness to deal with them in Truth has more often forced them to become cruel with their own, and wickedly, our willingness to deal with them in deception, has reaped cruelties upon our own heads. This must not be. We must become clean within and deal with those without as we would have done unto us.
Right is Right and the Living deserve all Authority in Obedience. The dead and dying deserve nought but Duty and table scraps, yet may enjoy all the disobedience they please knowing they make themselves open targets of them that wield the Sword of Justice. Separate yourselves from the wicked and they stand more easily targeted and dispersed of by the Righteous Lawman. Don’t make his job more difficult by fraternizing with the enemy. You must get on with your life in He who gives you Life in Abundance. Consider righteous Lot who had to leave Sodom before God would destroy it and the inhabitants thereof. This is hard and calls on one to leave "loved ones" behind…But this is love. You’re not doing them any favours dragging out the inevitable. And if they too can find their way out by following you, you’re a true disciple, friend and family member.
Thus may we come to the opportunity of a glorious repentance and time of peace and cooperative pride and labor with our enemies and neighbors made friends and helpmates. Exposing a collusive agreement to thwart and make impossible the same, in our effort and goal to live a Holy life of neighbourly righteousness only possible in a bygone age, and accomplished by doing no more than saying "No" to sin in any form. And yes to admittance of guilt and wanton duplicity in judgment.
Alma 24:7-16 I thank my God, my beloved people, that our great God has in goodness sent these our brethren, the Neophytes, unto us to preach unto us, and to convince us of the traditions of our wicked fathers. I thank my great God that he has given us a portion of his Spirit to soften our hearts, that we have opened a correspondence with these brethren, the Neophytes. I also thank my God, that by opening this correspondence we have been convinced of our sins, and of the many murders which we have committed. I also thank my God, yea, my great God, that he hath granted unto us that we might repent of these things, and also that he hath forgiven us of those our many sins and murders which we have committed, and taken away the guilt from our hearts, through the merits of his Son. And now behold, my brethren, since it has been all that we could do, (as we were the most lost of all mankind) to repent of all our sins and the many murders which we have committed, and to get God to take them away from our hearts, for it was all we could do to repent sufficiently before God that he would take away our stain. Now, my best beloved brethren, since God hath taken away our stains, and our swords have become bright, then let us stain our swords no more with the blood of our brethren. Behold, I say unto you, Nay, let us retain our swords that they be not stained with the blood of our brethren; for perhaps, if we should stain our swords again they can no more be washed bright through the blood of the Son of our great God, which shall be shed for the atonement of our sins. God has had mercy on us, and made these things known unto us that we might not perish; yea, and he has made these things known unto us beforehand, because he loveth our souls as well as he loveth our children; therefore, in his mercy he doth visit us by his angels, that the plan of salvation might be made known unto us as well as unto future generations. Oh, how merciful is our God! And since it has been as much as we could do to get our stains taken away from us, and our swords are made bright, let us hide them away that they may be kept bright, as a testimony to our God at the last day, or at the day that we shall be brought to stand before him to be judged, that we have not stained our swords in the blood of our brethren since he imparted his word unto us and has made us clean thereby. And now, my brethren, if our brethren seek to destroy us, behold, we will hide away our swords, yea, even we will bury them deep in the earth, that they may be kept bright, as a testimony that we have never used them, at the last day; and if our brethren destroy us, behold, we shall go to our God and shall be saved.
I began this entry, speaking about a woman I met online and our topic was dating irritations…That’s what dating is all about!
My loves have always turned out to be the most irritating beings I ever had the pleasure of falling for! And to be irritated is love it seems. That’s how we start out, isn’t it? I mean, like kids, we tease and hurt one another by accident, and feel badly or not, and love and or hate blossoms from our deepest most fundamental needs which are frequently brought to fore in the most embarrassing of ways, and these affectations last for eternity.
Which might be the amount of time it takes for the devil to overcome its hate and hurt?
God, which is Love, overcomes in an instant, and thus is the beginning and the end, the first and the last…the most patient, long suffering, merciful, forgiving Entity in all of Creation.
Most would rather stand on their own so that we are all handicapped and incable of standing together and sharing Him. We all fall for the devil and become miserable, but we’re also parasitically loving toward one another, which convinces us in our separation and ignoble apostasy, that we are right or that humanity is the highest achievement of man, when the opposite is true, it’s the lowest form of betrayal and hatred yet devised and accepted as the ends to the means…A very absurd pride overtakes all and we make ourselves unable and unworthy to receive the Gift of Salvation, because we’re striving to prove a lie to be true.
In the end, our love is the most purest form of hatred that ever took hold in the heart of man or woman. And though sometimes merciful seeming is damnation and the very snares and shackles of the Evil One.
If we could only just admit how truly guilty and abominable we are as a Nation, we could save the world….
Psa 106:10 And he saved them from the hand of him that hated [them], and redeemed them from the hand of the enemy.
Jhn 3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.